+ThE LoNeLy BoY +: September 2008

[2 sept 2008]

I was really sad when I find out the second times that you don love me anymore. Again!!!, I really feel sad that you don’t want to tell me at first you know how sad am I ? since last month when I go your house I still remember until now you like keep on smsing him non-stop. From that day onward I already know that u pretend to be with me but why you have to do that ??

Why have to wait until I find out ?? LLL

I think u should go for what u like ok

MY PROMISE: I will wait for you to come back to me, even u have new BF I don’t mind… anyway I will never going to have a new GF… I just wan to wait for U

You know you are the sweetest girl that I ever meet. You give me everything that what I want and need.

I wish I can see you everyday and also be a same girl that I meet before but it going to be in my DREAM from now on…

I cant accept that what I have done to do
But it already happen
What can I do ?
Nothing
Be lonely
No sleep
No eat
No friend
What can I do so that can get her back again ??
DON’T KNOW
Go back find her----[ no $$ now]—maybe after when I work
Call her everyday---- but still cant see her

Stop contact her ?? should I ?
Maybe
Why?
Because not together anymore
But I still love her
HOW?
I try to forget ??

Do you really don’t want me ??
Ans: I don’t know[she told me]

PLS: got for what you like better!
All I can do now is being lonely -SAD-

<> [3 sept 2008]

Why I call her again PLS forget about her her!!

You are not my GF anymore

I already say I BREAK UP to her

***A MSG THAT WE SMS***

HER: Im sorry… L I wish you back LLL I don’t know what to do…. I love you I love him. I really confuseL

ME: See even u confuse you love both, My gosh pls take 1 ok no need to take me I give him chance ya N.. pls forget about me I don’t think you will be back for me . I understand now ok L last MSG

HER: NO… I want you back L just one day I will get you back. I love you LLL

HER: Goodnight I love you L

>>SO CONFUSE << [4 sept 2008]

Why confuse ?
Asking yourself that what you want
Then you will get the answer
I know you cant decide
But it your CHOICE!
Me cant do anything
What to do again ?
Don’t knowL
I call her and talk to her
My last call
Make her CRY
Sorry for that.
If can pls forget about me
Let me sad alone
ALL MY FAULT !!
Not your fault ya
I let you play
SEE
If I stop you
Then this not gna happen
RITE ?
Why don’t tell me the truth from first

WHY HAVE TO DO THIS ??

ANS: I DON’T KNOW

Oh no !

Holy Shit!

Why I cant sleep ? cant study ? cant eat ? cant believe ?

What is happening to me?
Why every night I CRY?
What should I do?
Need help from someone
But who can help me ??

ALL I CAN DO IS

>>>FORGET<<<

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><:WHY CANT STOP:>< [4 sept 2008]

She told me everything but she still love him

SHE WANT HIM TO PROVE TO HER

It takes time
I have to try my best to forget !
Hey why she call me again ?
Even sms too

PROMISE I NOT GNA CALL HER ==== but I think I cant

But I don’t know what I gna go next
It so difficult for me to stay in this world…. Should I kill myself ?

“HURT & SAD”

VERY PAIN….

Cant sleep…. Cry too.

^^SHE CALL ME^^ [5 sept 2008]

aiyo she call me again but I never pick up. I went out to pick up my bro’s gf that why I can’t hear anything. So I just send her a MSG when I back home, but I think she sleep already because I think she never sleep like 2 to 3 day and think that she not well too. So yeah, she was so tired.

Its come out every night I don’t know… eye pain!

!SHE CALL ME!

I think she

Not enough sleep
Never eat as well
Cry too… me also actually…

##PLAN TO BUY HER MINI SKIRT## [6 sept 2008]

Actually I wanted to buy a mini skirt for you but I don’t know your size so I try to call you, but no one pick the phone. Then after like 20 min she call me back she told me that she went for shower so at that time me and my bro’s gf was busy that why I told her that nothing. I reach home abit late then I call her I think she happy about until very late I was waiting for her MSG. I think she wouldn’t send me anymore but at last my hp ring.
I guess that gna be MSG from HER

HER: Night night sweetdream… sleep well ya…I miss u seng… love you… JJ

---SHE CRY---[7 sept 2008]

Oh again this morning I making her cry , sad and angry that why she offline until at nite when I went out for dinner I wait for her the whole day I think she will come but at last NO! she call me when I go out so I told her that I will call her back later tonite until she think that I not gns call .so she sent me
MSG

HER: “Um seng, night sweetdreams. I don’t think you wanna talk to me so I wouldn’t call. Cause your voice just now is like you annoyed at me… so yeah. Sleep well”

Later on when I finish my study so I feel so happy that why I make my decision to call her at first her sound like so sad sad then I feel like I want to make her happy. Then at last I can make her smile and laugh too. She say she will call me tmr J

The last msg tht she sent to me

HER: Night Seng. Nic to talk to you J sweetdreams. I miss you and love you too… Goodluck ya don’t sleep so late.. takecare Seng. Talk to you tomorrow.

I cant stop cry when I say this MSG…

SORRY about this morning that I make you sad ya
Your feeling is SO SWEET!

***SHE CALL*** [8 sept 2008]

Oh my gosh….. she didn’t send me msg tonite she sleep so early today. She call me so I don’t want to waste her credit so I talk to her only 3min. yea today I call her I the afternoon and ask her to come online until 8pm. I ask her all the stupid question

Question:

Do u love me ?
You will wait for me ?
You miss me a lot ?

She want me to be very close friend as well it like we still together
But all I can do is just talk talk
I can’t even see and all.

“She cut her hand again”

SHE = HAPPY
ME = HURT, SAD AND CRY

@@I DON’T KNOW@@ [9 sept 2008]

A msg the I receive from her

HER: Are you calling me tonight? Seng I sent you comment already. Sorry ya yesterday I can’t cause so much homework. Miss you seng love you. Nightnight sweetdream ya.

That all for today ya. She not gna call me ya I know that I am not one for you so yeah. Even I go online you also never come ok.. FINE!

Yeah I sent you MSG early about you and him as well hope you two will be together ya have a sweet time
I sorry I think I really not the one for you..

>>>SHOCK<<< [10 sept 2008]

I really SHOCK ! about what she has wrote on her BLOG it all about HIM since JUNE until today SEPT it like already 3 month that I has been cheated by her. I really can’t believe about this. I really disappointed. Seriously I don’t understand why you do this to the one who give you everything but at last just end up with this. I should ask you that why u treat me this way ?

Yeah its HURT me a lot you know ??

Did you ever think about that before you do ?

I want call you just to say SORRY but you don’t even pick up my call FINE. You want like that then it would be your choice ok you choose it ok!

“I can’t believe that you doing this to me”

+++WHY CRY INFRONT OF YOU+++ [11 sept 2008]

I just finish talking to you. I cry and I tell you all about my feeling that I feel right now. So sad and hurt as well. I can’t face it. This is the first time that I feel this sad and hurt. It really sad

UM.. you know it like I don’t have anyone to talk to accept you. But you still have HIM to talk. I am so lonely I think I should DIE! No one loves me anymore. I just want to get you back N_T I know that it hard but I still try all my best ok.
Should I? Or shouldn’t I?
Who can answer this question ??
I think only you **N_T_L_I**
The girl that I love the most

WHY I CRY INFRONT OF GIRL ??

AM I A MAN ??

I CAN’T FORGET ABOUT YOU N_T !!!

<<>> [12 sept 2008]

SAD!!! I feeling like want to kill myself

1. S _ _ _ _
2. D _ _ _ _
3. Go under the rain and stand from 10pm until 2am.

Yeah, but she still wait for me.
I know now you still worry about me…
THANK YOU JA
I CALL YOU ONE LAST TIME TOO

ALMOST DIE

FUCKING COLD
HAND PAIN CUT!!
SUFFER

CRY!!!

>>>DRINK<<< [13 sept 2008]

Um I saw you online but I want to see how you want to greet me first or not but yeah. NO then suddenly you went offline. Then I went out.

Back home in the morning 7.30AM. I go my friend house for DRINK we start drink from 10pm. Until morning. OH yeah I VOMIT a lot so sick something like that very suffer
Oh my god I want to die like that…

I THINK IT HELP!!

My friend told me I don’t know say something like “my life just has you N_t_li_” he told me that I talk to him all about my love…
I think I don’t know what I am talking that time….

Even cry too !!! too bad….

###MIS-UNDER-STAND### [14 sept 2008]

I have read your BLOG. Um I realize that it all my fault.
I treat you badly when I was in KL yeah.
I don’t even care about you
I also give you everything you
Everything I give it to you
I love you so much but I just don’t want to SHOW!!!
Even I go college I never even talk to any GIRL they all just my friend.
I can do like KEVIN did to JULIANA.
But yet I will never do this to you.
Because I love you
I know I don’t much time for you.
Yeah its my fault
OK!
I am sorry
Your BLOG making me more

HURT & PAINFUL

If you just want me to be a normal person for you its ok

I WILL NEVER FORGET ABOUT YOU

I am sorry
I only talk to Juliana About this
I tell her everything about us.
Yeah I tol her that you LIE to me
But only Juliana that all
I never tell anyone else about us and only who that we BREAK UP was
JULIANA, JACQ and my thai friend [all this friend in Thailand]
Yea, I think JULIANA talk to you everything that
I have told her

The meaning LIE for me it not like YOU LIE TO ME!!
I mean like you hide something then you never tell me
That I call it LIE
I think you misunderstand about

Your meaning of lie
And my meaning of LIE

I just don’t want it to end this way !!

At last I try to talk to you any and ask you to make for me a BLOG
Thank for that yea…
I send her msg too before I sleep

BE A BEST FRIEND

Thank you for everything…

<<>> [15 sept 2008]

Wake up late…
Late for class…
Teacher scold like hell
What a day
Maybe last night sleep late
Because study and do homework last min again !!
Aiyo I always like that la…

Later I have to go pick up my bro’s gf again…
Haven’t taken my dinner so hungry!!

Aiyo today I have wrote all this its very tired la…
Maybe later my 1st brother bring me out for dinner but have to wait until 8.30pm. so late and hungry too…
Never mind
I can force it J

Today a lot of homework again
Lazy to doL

I don’t know why I cant forget about u ??
I even call u when I come back home…
But yeah no one pick up the hp…

()()()() I DON’T KNOW HOW TO FORGET()()()() [16 sept 2008]

Wake up so late today.. just take lunch then never eat again… I don’t why every second I MISS HER all the time.. I know that sound stupid.. but I really difficult… I call her again in afternoon no one pick up again !! I think she sleeping…

I didn’t mean to disturb but I just MISS HER… so I call her again,,,
I know that make HER annoy about that …
I even send HERa mail…
Call HER
SMS HER

But its like she really no more feel for me anymore !!!

Never mind

I will wait for her to come back to me
I know that I am CRAZY but ok never mind.

I also send HER mail before I go offline too.

Aiyo tired

Let go sleep !!

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Tuesday, September 30, 2008

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